I am just a nursing student. Why do I have to go through all this? I know the best is expected of me. I expect people to expect the best from me, but any sighting of my instructor now gets me anxious.
I have always been an optimistic person, and as such I dont subscribe to the Mondays were invented to punish us for our degeneracies over the weekend school of thought. Yet recent Mondays have got me questioning my optimism. A smiling face hides how much I am overwhelmed deep inside throughout the day.
First, my morning commune that always lasts 40 minutes dragged through. So I just sat there drawing pictures on my mind on how the day would go through.
Then I struggled to get the hang of the new system at this hospital. Last semester I was at a different hospital, and adapting to the system (Sunrise 61) of this new hospital I moved to this semester has been a challenge. Which meant I gave a late report to my instructor and also delayed in recording of the vital signs in my patient. I have only used the new database twice, so looking up patient information proved to be a frustrating task. For a perfectionist and someone who is good at grasping new concepts, the experience was quite stressful. Later when I sat down to do some studying, I stared at my books for 30 minutes without doing anything meaningful. Thankfully, todays exams have been moved to next week Tuesday and I have time to get over the situation.
Change the attitude you have of Monday and youll have a perfect start to the day. They say. Sometimes Monday can decide to be a pain in the ***. They never say. It's hard to not think of all the flaws and the problems that have arisen in the recent Mondays. From not being able to maneuver through a new system to being late taking caring of my patient. Could it have gotten any worse?
Clinicals are supposed to be fun places. They are a chance to polish on my nursing skills. Hopefully, things will get better. I choose to see the glass as half full.
Meanwhile, erase this past Monday, and the one before. Somebody. Anybody. Please!