Nothing, absolutely nothing, would have prepared me for the past one month in school. Before joining nursing school, I had talked to established professionals in the nursing field on what to expect and how to handle myself in order to achieve my dreams. But still, that didn’t prepare me enough for what I have been going through lately. Saying it has been hectic would be an understatement.
With an exam almost every two weeks, I have spent days on end on my beanie bag studying for 3 to 4 hours straight. Whenever you set out to do something, something else must always be done first. That’s Murphy’s laws for you. So when I try to focus on my books, that’s when my phone receives mails and messages one after the other. Whatsapp suddenly becomes more interesting and fun. Ignoring them becomes increasingly difficult. Thankfully, I have never flunked my exams. Otherwise things would just get more complicated and stressful.
Though each new day brings you closer to your dreams and a chance to make new memories, I have wished for nothing more than that the days pass by as fast as possible. Early mornings, busy days, late nights, all work and no play. There were days, mostly Mondays, when I was afraid that I was experiencing mental breakdowns. There were days when I felt that the weight was crushing me down, days when I felt like the world was sinking me in. Days when I felt that I couldn’t take it anymore. Days when I felt like quitting.
But I never quit! I had no option but to stay strong and keep going. Whenever I felt like quitting, I always told myself that I didn’t start the journey just to quit mid-way. I keep going, because I have to make myself and everyone who has been supportive of me proud. I am an optimist. The struggles only make me stronger.